Excitement, Fear and Impatience

Friday's bio-metric (fingerprint) appointment was a first.  We have been to that government office 3 times now and had 4 sets of bio-metric prints done. This is the first time my prints took the without any problems, and I'm sure the lading scanning my fingers has no clue how wonderful that was for her...and me.  I was so sick that they lady at the front desk asked me if I was okay. Brent didn't carry me in on his back, but he did help me from falling over. Only problem is that no one can stand with you during the scanning. The sweet lady doing my prints was about 5 seconds from having a collapsed U.S. Citizen at her feet. It truly was the BEST experience we have ever had at that office.  I knew Brent said people were praying and we were blessed by you. Thank you for holding us up once again on this L-O-N-G journey.  We are so excited to have this step out of the way.

Why add fear to the mix?  Because in my flesh I am still a Type-A personality and though I know I am really NOT in control...Well, my flesh makes me think so at times.  We know adoption is risky.  We've sat with our little girl in our lap and a lady tell us that we couldn't adopt her.  It's risky even when it doesn't seem so.  However, every time that becomes a reality my flesh kicks in, as if God doesn't know what He's doing. I think for me it's that I won't like what God is doing because it may hurt.  We have asked for an infant, and at the time it should have taken 9-12 months to bring him home. Pretty guaranteed he'd be home by his first birthday. (But! Then again there are never guarantees.)  With the DRC government hold all exit letters for at least another 10 months our fear is that we will receive a referral then have to wait well over a year to bring him home.  I'm not quite ready to watch my baby grow up overseas again.  I'm not backing out I'm just really fearful that God will make me wait and,  Yep! I hate to wait.  There's my impatience.  I want my baby and I want him soon after I find out who he is.  

There's really not much I can do about any of the things I wrote above. So, I will fall back on one thing that was build into who I was as a child...

Isaiah 40:31 

    but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

    they will run and not grow weary,

    they will walk and not be faint.

When it all comes down to it. My hope really is in the Lord.  He's has proven Himself to Brent and I countless times.  May I not make the same mistake the Israelites made by watching God's great wonders then worshiping idols, which in my case is my own pride and self-sufficiency. 

While we wait for our I-600 to come I'll leave you with some family photos...

FINGERPRINTS...

We have our fingerprint appointment tomorrow at 10 am in Charlotte.  Finally!  Things are moving a little bit.  BUT...Rachel has the stomach virus...very weak, sick sick sick.  We don't have time to change the appointment so we're hoping she has enough reserve energy and we're going down there.  Please pray that everything works out ok and that we can get things taken care, and that she feels better tomorrow.